Why I changed

When I was a youngster, my dream was to be a writer. Every day I would get a new idea, and I would write a narrative about it. 
I took a break from writing when I hit highschool... A lot happened in 2012 and I did something I regret to this day, I CHANGED MYSELF. 
You hear about people who change themselves for the better... But in 2012, I changed for worse. I'm not sure what it is that caused me to change so much. But in 2011, after having an awesome teacher and a great year, I was a confident kid who made friends easily. But the years leading up to 2011, I was very different. 
Then in 2011, I was great! My life was awesome, I was prepared for ANYTHING. 

Then came 2012. Like I mentioned earlier, I'm not sure what made me change. But I do remember one thing, I hung around with the same person for the whole year. She made friends easily when we hit highschool but I didn't- it might have been the whole idea of being in a different environment or not being with my other primary school friends that made me this way. Or it could just be my natural shyness... ANYWAY! After hanging with this friend, I turned into something I know I'm not. I was a BITCH! I got into arguments a lot- Not because I started them but because I had finally made a friend which I was sure I would keep forever. The problem? This friend liked to get involved in a lot of arguments. 
Anyway... I changed so much when I hung around with her. I pushed away all my old pals from primary school, I stopped with my writing because it was "Uncool" and well, I picked up some bad habits like swearing, discriminating and stuff like that.

But I hated it... I hated what I'd become, I just couldn't turn away that easily.
So that friendship ended the next year, and I struggled even more to make friends after that. I became really shy! I became super sensitive and my trust issues were at an all time high.

I had lost countless hours of sleep and still sometimes have a cry when I think about that friendship. Why do I cry about it? Because of what I've had to deal with after the "break up"
I struggled to find friends
BUT thank god my primary school friends had my back!

Now I have made so many more friends and they are absolutely AWESOME! Where would I be without them? Probably moping around in my room.
My confidence has been found again although I still have to battle with shyness and awkwardness in social situations but that's just me, I've always been like it!

AND NOW I PROMISE TO MYSELF, THAT THIS IS MY FINAL FORM, I WILL NEVER CHANGE MY PERSONALITY AGAIN!!