Let's talk about friends

I have often struggled to make friends 
I often speak about the amazing friends I've got at the moment.
But this is because I finally have truly awesome friends.
And I don't just say that, my friends are really amazing.

And back in primary school, I found it hard to connect with people my own age. My best friend in pre-school was my teacher! So when thrown into primary school, I found the kids hard to talk to, NOT because I found them rude or annoying but because I was shy.
I had like 2 friends in kindergarten to year 3. But I still didn't feel like I belonged! 
But then in year 4, I made a new friend. This was someone who I felt accepted me for who I was. There was never a dull moment with her. We were really close, visiting each other's houses every weekend we were just a part of the furniture. 
Finally I belonged in a real friendship. 
BUT LITTLE DID I KNOW IT WAS ALL GOING TO END

Then in 2013, something happened that changed me she broke me to pieces at the start of the year. Found some new friends and then just suddenly didn't wanna talk to me, I trusted her with everything and not talking to her killed me inside. Whenever someone asked about her I just shrugged, if I told them about what had happened and they talked bad about her I stopped them, I'm not the type of person who works on the trust of somebody then talks shit about them. I didn't talk to her for 4 months before she sent me a long apologetic message, I forgave her but that piece of me is gone now, that close friendship will probably never happen again with anyone friends are so hard to make for me but are so easily lost, from that friendship I learned to not make close friendships anymore. I haven't spoken to her since then. why? Because I looked back on the whole ordeal one day and noticed that she was slowly manipulating me, I had turned into a real jerk when I was around her. 

After that whole ordeal, my social skills seemed to be stripped away from me. I struggled even more. 

BUT SINCE THEN 

• I have made new friends 
• Have achieved many things I could have never imagined 
• I have worked out who my friends are
• I even made a speech to all of my year group at school 

The friends I have now are amazing, I wouldn't trade them in for the universe.